Do you ever have one of those days where your heart is heavy and you have no clue why?
For one, it's a great day in a great week. You are being actively challenged in life, and rising to the occasion. Your relationships are good, or, at least, to be expected. Your old habits may present themselves now and then, but you are resisting, or receiving God's grace and pushing forward.
In the zone. Not bored, not depressed, not hurting, not anxious. Joyful, even. Peaceful, even. In a way. And yet, a heavy heart.
So you take it to God. Spend some extra time praying and meditating on his word. Opening the lines of communication and talking to God, asking questions, even as you go about your day. Share your heart with a few trusted friends, the usual wise counselors, ask some questions and answer many in return.
And yet still nothing. A few possible candidates identified. Maybe you're processing something in the past, mulling over something yet approaching. Maybe you're empathizing with some friend or distant family member. Yet nothing really hits the epiphany, so you commit that stuff to the Lord in faith and move on. Heavy still.
Ever have one of those days?
I'm having one today. I just can't put my finger on it. God's not telling me, or I'm just not hearing him, so I guess all I can really do is persist. Take another tactic and write it out. And just wait, share, listen.
Friends, if you have anything burdening your heart, please feel free to share with me. I'd love to lift you up in prayer while I'm in this place.
We know that the whole creation has been groaning as in the pains of childbirth right up to the present time. Not only so, but we ourselves, who have the firstfruits of the Spirit, groan inwardly as we wait eagerly for our adoption as sons, the redemption of our bodies. For in this hope we were saved. But hope that is seen is no hope at all. Who hopes for what he already has? But if we hope for what we do not yet have, we wait for it patiently.
In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express. And he who searches our hearts knows the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for the saints in accordance with God's will.
And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.
Romans 8:22-28
